Thursday, 08 January 2009
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It's About To Get Very Unbridey In Here
I'm going to stop lying about why I'm not writing here and just be honest.
I haven't been writing because I've been depressed.
Depression runs in my family and it's hitting me hard right now. My cousin got kicked out of the drug treatment plan for her cancer and there's no other treatment so there's nothing else we can do but wait and I am wildly unhappy about my work situation right now and there's no places hiring so there's nothing else I can do but wait.
So most days I feel sad. Sometimes it's big and sometimes it's little, but it's pretty much a continuing theme of sad. There are bright spots, the main one being my fabulous husband Mr. Hum. He's been my cheerleader in all of this and he's a huge part of the reason that I can continue to get out of bed in the morning because he encourages me to think forward to happier times or backwards to happier times. And one of those happy times was the wedding. I truly love the memories of our wedding. And there is this part of me that doesn't want to taint those happy memories with this unrelenting funk of mine.
So I'm not writing. At least not here. I've started writing over at another blog about ridiculous pop culture stuff because it's easier to deal with then all this wedding stuff, so if you want updates, that's where to go for now.
I will eventually be back here to finish up everything. Just give me a little time.
XOXOXO,
Mrs. Hum
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Comments (12)
It's OK sweetie. We'll be here when you are ready. Take care of yourself.
You can't get rid of us.
I hope that you feel better soon...we'll still be here, so sorry that you're sad.
Don't worry sweety, no rush. You need to take care of you. I'll definitely keep you in my prayers.
Don't worry about us, Just know that it takes the crappy times to truly appreciate the good times and things will be ok in the end. Eww, I sound so corny, but it's true
hug :(
if you need to talk, i'm just a phone call away. we can be emo togetheri will wait for your return, sweets. good days fluctuates but remember you're loved just the same. xo.
Aww Mrs. Hum! Don't worry about blogging! I'm sure everyone out here in Xanga-land understands!
Hope you feel better soon!
sorry to hear.
hope you get better soon. depression is not much fun...
take care..
I wish you all the best
I read your farewell post at weddingbee and I'm a bit confused. Are they homophobic? Are you? Why did you leave them?
@Tiziana - Weddingbee was bought by eHarmony which is a company that has strong ties to the Christian right. For a while, they even funded the group "Focus on Family" which, among other things believes homosexuality is a curable illness. Between this and between eHarmony's lawyers editing the posts of our one gay blogger (the lovely and talented Mrs. Gingerbread), I felt uncomfortable in continuing my association with the organization.
The best man at my wedding was gay and many of our guests were gay, bi and transsexual. I fully love and support all of them.